Sunday, April 20, 2014

RESISTANCE

RESISTANCE.  I took home a book on CD from the library on writing, which also applied to any creative work, such as painting.
He talks of resistance and it rings very true and it helps me clarify what the bleep is wrong with my art career.  I worked very hard and wasted no time while I was listening to it and next day. He talks of the fear of success as well.
Hmmmm, what is the title?  It is by the author of The Legend of Bagger Vance, Stephen Pressfield, which I have not read, nor have I seen the film.  He is all about the muse the the gods, he disses fundamentalism & I do too, only he would consider me one.  
I love the resitance idea.  But I hate resistance. It is within me (us).  It is destructive and prevents creativity....and if creativity flows, it stops it before it reaches the others who might be blessed by it.  I call that Satan's work.  He makes me understand what I have heard before.  Just show up every day.  Work hard.  Don't look for inspiration.  It will find you.   Work.  Be in your studio with fresh paint and paper and use them over and over.  Whatever gift God has given you will be given to the world.  Only you can give the gift that only you have within you from God.
Yea and Amen.

Resistance is the nay-sayer Chip told me I have on my shoulder.  (so I keep Chip on my other shoulder to balance me and I listen to him ultimately.  Therefore I have a chip on my shoulder.)
Resistance is the whiner.
Resistance is the victim.
Resistance is the quenching of the Holy Spirit.
Resistance is Satan's Spirit, if you will.
Resistance is having an all day Quiet Time.
Resistance is happy when there is sore throat, because she thinks it is an excuse to sit and wait till she heals before she has to go back to decision making and acting on her decisions.  
Resistance blames the husband for her unhappiness.
Resistance spins wheels at 140 mph.
Paint Pollock!
Pollock's paintings remind me of my recurring dream.
Resistance prefers to just do this little task that will only take a minute, rather than START the work.

The above was written back in 09 or something; I was still in Virginia Beach
It is 2014 and I am still getting the same messages in different words from other creative types and still NEEDING encouragement from the Chip on my shoulder (Chip was a pastor turned vocational coach whom I met in Maryland when I was leaving ministry and walking into a big fat question mark.   He was the one who told me "of all the people I have met and I have met thousands, you have the biggest nay-sayer on your shoulder of anyone!"  Example:  I would like to live in a beach house, BUT I CAN"T DO THAT because I don't have enough money.   

I think I should blog about The Artist's Way.

Saturday, April 19, 2014

This is Boki, the new puppy,
now 6 months old.  A gift from a friend from my other life in the last century.
poodle, lab and golden retriever mix.
Sweetest boy.